I like how they move you places and give you a framework to build on once you're there. I like how they map out the future and give me concrete things to work towards.
But over the last couple of weeks, God's been teaching me that I need to leave the plans to him and enjoy the moment I'm in. Because sometimes, I get so caught up in the future that I'm planning out that I forget about the present I'm living in.
And that's when I freak myself out.
Because I start thinking about things that are about 15 steps past the point I'm currently living and I realize I'm not ready for those steps.
And I have to stop and remind myself: I'm not ready because I'm not there yet and God is still working things out. And when I do get there I will be ready because God has gone before me and prepared the way. And he's prepared me.
He will teach me what I need to know by the time I need to know it. Not before.
He will show me the way to walk when it's time to walk it. Not before.
He will put the experiences in my life I need to prepare me when it's time for the preparation. Not before.
My job is simply to trust, learn, and enjoy the moment. To trust that God's got this all figured out even when I don't. To learn what he is teaching my heart in that moment. And to sit back and watch him show off because these moments are going to prepare me for the next moments... and I don't want to miss that.
I'm not saying I'm throwing out all my plans. Plans can be good. They can give focus and purpose. They can form a vision and gather a team. They can motivate a team to reach a goal.
But when I'm living too much in the future and trying to make plans that aren't ready to be made, that's when I need to take a step back and just watch God work. That's when I need to trust. And that's when I need to just enjoy the moment God has given me to live right now.
And that's when the freaking out stops and the peace and joy take over.