Part of the reason it was/is so stressful is that I don't know what the end result will be. Which, when I stop and think about it, God never promised I would know.
And so today, I've been mediating and consumed with thoughts of his plans. And several verses continued popping up in my head (and on my computer screen when I googled). So as I reflect and trust what these verses say, I hope you will do the same.
"My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts," says the LORD. "And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope."
"But the plans of the LORD stand firm forever, the purposes of his heart through all generations."
"The LORD Almighty has sworn, "Surely, as I have planned, so it will be, and as I have purposed, so it will stand."
And that's the hope that I have. That even though I don't know God's plans: He does. And he's proven himself faithful in the past and he will continue to be faithful in the future. And this I know: Every promise of God is true. So I will trust him.