Anyways all that to say that I loved today's verse. I love that I made it back to my office to read it at least three or four times today. The verse was Jeremiah 17:7-8:
"But blessed is the one who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him. They will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit."
Today this was a reminder to trust in God. To put my confidence and hope in him. To rely on him. Because I want to be like that tree. I don't want to fear when hard times, stressful times, and times of testing come. I don't want to worry when emptiness seems to come flooding in. I don't want to worry when I feel lonely or just dry and tired. I want to bear fruit. I want to be healthy and grow. I want God's blessing.
I want to trust. And I'm working on it. It seems to be going slowly somedays. The days when I want to go back to my office (which happens to be padded/sound proof) and scream for a few seconds or minutes depending on my mood. And then there's the days that are good. The days when I'm ready to work for longer because my student is getting things, or the rest of the students are behaving and I get to have some fun with them.
Trusting isn't easy. But it's necessary. And it's coming. Slowly, but it's happening.
127. Long walks on nice days
128. Beautiful spring days
129. Co workers who understand what I'm going through
130. Drew "creating" signs :-)
131. March Madness Craziness
132. New shorts that fit and are smaller than last summer's
133. A new summer/spring wardrobe that looks like spring/summer
134. Sitting cross legged.... it just makes me happy
135. The chance to observe other interpreters work